Interspect

depressed

piperou7 — Tue, 17 Jan 2012 15:40:22 +0000

I thought I’d see Dr. G tomorrow. But they got the offices mixed up. Sooo. i have to wait an additional 3 weeks. I’m hoping to get a consult with him over the phone in case he wants me to do some tests etc. So we can get the ball rolling so to speak. I still have to get the ultrasound done for the GYN for the 16th of Feb. UGh.

Wednesday

piperou7 — Tue, 17 Jan 2012 09:12:11 +0000

I see Dr. G. Learn of my fate as far as my DS goes. What is going wrong? What is wrong? I just don’t know. I try, but I still gain. Others lose so easily, for me, it’s a battle.
Just want to be normal for once in my life. Wanna be healthy and want weight to not be an issue for me. I hope he can help me, if not. I don’t know what I will do.
I’ve gone off of two boards with Vet help. Don’t need the drama. It’s really unwanted and I can’t stand the judgement shit that goes on. It’s like a ‘if I can, why can’t you’ bullshit. I have enough difficulties without strangers from the evil empire adding too my shit.
Good decision made on my part. I do need to spend less time on the internet.

Fiber…

piperou7 — Fri, 13 Jan 2012 10:12:20 +0000

Adding more fiber to my diet. Really found out yesterday how much I am lacking. Gonna make some beef&barley stew in the crockpot. I don’t know when, but soon. Until then, I’ll use the fiber powder.

Sometimes

piperou7 — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 16:18:48 +0000

People annoy me. Staying away from that website. Being judged unduly. Don’t like or permit that shit in my life anymore. I have to get offline and live real life.

Sometimes

piperou7 — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 21:21:36 +0000

Enough is never enough… It’s simply the end of something..

Finding my way…

piperou7 — Sun, 18 Dec 2011 15:20:34 +0000

Deplin has really made the difference. It’s starting to get cold, so I won’t be going out much to stretch my legs. Hunkering down for the winter, I guess.

Still miss my uncle. it’s weird that he’s no longer here. He was such a presence in my life for so long and now, he’s gone. Everyone is feeling it still.

One hell of a year…

No longer

piperou7 — Fri, 04 Nov 2011 11:07:54 +0000

Does it really matter anymore. Who knows what 5 years will bring me. I’ll be older, but will things remain the same. Will they have improved or diminished. Not sure anymore.

Goodbye

piperou7 — Sun, 30 Oct 2011 20:24:30 +0000

My uncle died last Saturday. It still haunts me. I should have never seen his body. My mind is full of all types of thoughts, I am overwhelmed.

Worried

piperou7 — Sat, 22 Oct 2011 10:32:03 +0000

the police, ambulance and fire dept. are here to get my uncle out of his apt. and to the hospital. He is really sick.

Scared

piperou7 — Wed, 19 Oct 2011 00:47:13 +0000

uncle sick. went to hospital. don’t know why my mind is fixated that he’s gonna die tonight. Maybe it’s my way of coping. I just don’t know. I feel anxious and scared and nervous and all alone. Nothing is right. I’m worried for my mother. I know she’s upset. My brother is very upset also, but he’s terribly weak. Running around the streets like a fool. He seriously needs to grow up. I just want the year to be over, which will bring me closer to my iPad. My treat for all the shit I’ve gone thru this year. Dan will never understand why I want an iPad. It has nothing to do with what everyone else has, it has to do with my need to have something of my own. Something NEW. I am nothing, I feel like nothing, I will never have anything. Grant me this ONE thing. I’m gonna earn it.