I want to connect with someone new.

tired of being alone. tired of trying period.

i’m hating this existence. it’s getting me nowhere. i see nothing, feel nothing and cry all the time. I don’t want to do this anymore. Something has got to give, eventually. why do I hold onto something I know won’t work out. I had hopes, dreams, asperations, whatever. Now it’s just me and my depression again.

I know the reasons behind my depression and lack of weightloss is my low iron levels. I can’t wait for my infusions. Gotta get back on track. Trying Atkins for a few days, in hopes of kicking it up a notch. something structured to follow will help me.

the title says it all. Just thru with it all. nothing seems to work. maybe it’s meds time.

that i could do this, meet someone. but they’re not interested anymore. I’m not gonna beg anyone. I’ll just be alone.

people like me don’t find happiness. we just exist. day fall like rain and dry and die. nobody understands, nobody cares, it’s just another reason to doubt that things will change.

unloved, unwanted, unappreciated and alone. So many hopes and dreams all dashed to hell. What is wrong with me. So very alone.

not sure what to do or say. just feeling bad today, nervous, anxious and tired.

I may have my first date in YEARS. His name is Lee. He’s from Bloomfield. He seems nice. We’ll see how it goes.